About a month ago I started writing posts about looking for my sister. You can read those posts here, here, here and here. In my last post I stated that I would be giving it a rest. I never gave up on looking, but after I found them I wanted to give them time to take all of it in and make a decision to talk to me or not. It took a little over a month, but I can now say that I have officially found my sisters.
She reached out and contacted me last night and we talked for a little over an hour. Her name is Christine and she lives in Missouri with her boyfriend and their son. It was also confirmed that I have another sister named Lillie who lives in California and is expecting her first child as well.
And that’s not all. I guess Johnny Baby Seed (our dad) has been planting his seeds all over the place including back home in Jersey where this all started. I found out last night that I also have another brother. He his 3 years old, and his name is James (my middle name). I honestly have no words. I kind of figured that there might be more children out there sired by him but I never once expected to find out there was one as early as 3 years ago.
Its sad, but I would assume I will never meet young James. I would figure the only way to be a part of his life would have to be to go through his dad and that is something I would never do. In my 34 years I have only seen my dad about 6 times, the last time being 17 years ago. There was one point in time that I really did want him to be a part of my life, but those feelings have passed just as the years have.
Although I have no love for the man, I honestly don’t have any hate for him either. I wish him and his family the best in life, but as far as I’m concerned he is just some guy that I met a few times who gave me a baseball mitt once. I have lived 34 years without a dad and I can only assume I will make it through the next 34 just fine without one as well.